Crossing Over
By Matthew Campanella ’13
Photo by Jon Rou
This is how it happens, I realize. This is how people get separated and become hopelessly lost. They panic, their group scatters, and they get lost in the brush, wandering aimlessly, until they die of heat exhaustion. Between 2011 and 2013, the remains of 296 migrants were discovered in Brooks County, although this number is estimated to represent as few as 10 percent of those who perished here. If I were to die here, my body would skeletonize quickly, unlikely ever to be found.
From nightfall to daybreak, we hear the haunting sound of migrants rustling quickly through the brush. In the morning, the abandoned belongings we find among the footprints tell stories about those who journey here: wallets and personal identification cards, costume jewelry from a woman who wore her best, children’s winter coats, piles of empty energy drink bottles and broken water jugs painted black to deflect light, strategically placed stockpiles of provisions awaiting coyotes.
Three lost young men from Central America approach us. They have fled their home countries to escape violence and provide a better life for their children. They are drinking brown water from a cow pond, having wandered for three days after their coyote abandoned them. They actually think they are walking to Houston, more than 275 miles away. We give them our life-saving water before parting company. From then on, I observe firsthand the effects of heat and dehydration. John becomes confused and agitated. Even though I am guiding us in the right direction by following power lines, he becomes disoriented every few hundred meters. As heat exhaustion sets in, John gets angry and frustrated, and nothing I say can calm him down or convince him that we are heading the right way. I watch fat vultures circling overhead as my friend is painfully succumbing to the elements.
Although I am physically fit and complete the journey, I feel a part of myself dying along the way. By putting myself in the shoes of migrants and experiencing this hellish obstacle course that is their introduction to the United States, I am overcome with a sense of shame and humiliation that I have never felt before. This inhumane journey has denigrated me. Does anyone deserve this? Is this my country’s test that migrants must pass to share in the freedom and opportunity she provides? If other Americans could feel what I am feeling, the pain of human suffering and fragility of human life, would there be an urgency to find a solution?